Brian called Sonshine on Tuesday morning. He could not take the anticipation any longer. He had to know if he was chosen for the job, or if he was back in square one. Well, square one it is. They were leaning towards someone with "more experience." The beginning is a tough spot to be when you haven't had the chance to gain experience. But our God is good and will provide all in His timing, as we already have seen. We know He wouldn't have blessed us with one miracle without thinking about the other. I am so proud of my husband though. When he found out, he didn't get discouraged. He said we have to rejoice and know that we are in God's will. He also shared with me a verse that he came across as he was reading his bible the next morning...
"In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith--more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire--may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ." 1 Peter 1:6-7
God is good and sometimes, it's okay to be in square one, because that is right where He wants us to be...
Showing posts with label God's will. Show all posts
Showing posts with label God's will. Show all posts
Friday, July 30, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Glad I bought the 2nd box...
For the last week or so I have had a daily ritual that included peeing on a stick...yes, I was taking ovulation tests to make sure that I am ovulating, and to find out when. I first bought a pack of 7, and wasn't going to buy anymore. After 6 days of negatives, I was beyond discouraged. Day 7 arrived, and still nothing. After talking to my sister and a good friend, I decided to buy another box. Maybe I was not "normal" and ovulate late...or early. So today was day 8...and guess what? I got a positive!!! Oh I was so happy I could have cried. I cannot imagine the joy I will have once I finally see a positive on a pregnancy test. This was a huge step for us though. I have been so worried that I may not be ovulating, and that it could be a reason we haven't conceived yet. Thankfully, God chose to hear my prayer and gave me this huge sign that everything is okay, even though He didn't have to. I love it when He does that for His children!
I am not saying that we will get pregnant this month, and that's okay if we don't. God has plans for us that we cannot begin to wrap our minds around, and for that I will forever be grateful. To know that He has spent His time planning our lives...that's an honor. I will gladly live out the life that He has made for me. I am just so grateful that He has given me this peace and assurance that everything will work out in His timing.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans for good and not for evil. To give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
I am not saying that we will get pregnant this month, and that's okay if we don't. God has plans for us that we cannot begin to wrap our minds around, and for that I will forever be grateful. To know that He has spent His time planning our lives...that's an honor. I will gladly live out the life that He has made for me. I am just so grateful that He has given me this peace and assurance that everything will work out in His timing.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans for good and not for evil. To give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
Saturday, June 26, 2010
While I'm Waiting...
Last night I realized something. Something big. I have to stop trying to run my own life and I have to start giving everything to God. I so often say that it's in His hands, or that He will handle it. Although there is soooo much truth in that, I have to believe it and not just say it. I also have to learn to prioritize. I want so many things at the same time and I just want to go and make them all happen. I have to learn that God's timing is not my own and I need to chill out and let him paint the picture! So on my way to work I heard a song that I love, and it was a great reminder from God that I need to just wait. Wait. Wait. And then wait. He's got this and doesn't need my help.
"I'm waiting. I'm waiting on you, Lord. And I am hopeful. I'm waiting on you, Lord. Though it it painful, but patiently I will wait. I will move ahead bold and confident. Taking every step in obedience. While I'm waiting, I will worship. While I'm waiting, I will not faint. I'll be running the race, even while I wait." -John Waller-
"I'm waiting. I'm waiting on you, Lord. And I am hopeful. I'm waiting on you, Lord. Though it it painful, but patiently I will wait. I will move ahead bold and confident. Taking every step in obedience. While I'm waiting, I will worship. While I'm waiting, I will not faint. I'll be running the race, even while I wait." -John Waller-
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Here lately...
Yeah, I know...it's been a month since I posted. I am seriously going to start posting weekly...seriously. Anyway, a lot has been going on lately so I will just give you the 411 of our lives right now, short version.
For starters, Brian still has not been hired as a teacher. He has had 3 interviews with different schools, and got his first rejection letter yesterday. We haven't heard anything from the other 2 as of yet. I know in my heart that God will provide for us and will never leave or forsake us, because He told us so in His word. But telling my head that is a totally different story. Or maybe it's the other way around. Either way, I am getting very nervous. We kind of thought he would have a job more quickly, so we are definitely trying not to get discouraged. The good news is he found out Tuesday that he got a summer job as a server at the Plantation. This is so awesome and we are thankful for this opportunity He has given Brian.
Another part of our lives has revolved around something that I have wanted so badly since I was old enough to realize the concept; to be a mommy. We have been praying about God's plan for us in this area, and I have a peace that He will bless us in His timing. I have some medical issues that will only get better once we have a child, so that is why we came off of birth control...almost a year ago. That being said, it worries me that somethink more may be wrong. However, I know that God's timing is everything. And being that B doesn't have a steady job, and we don't have a house yet, I know that His timing is not now. Once again, my head knows. But my heart hurts and longs for a sweet baby of our own. I continue to pray daily for God's peace and strength and patience as we wait this out.
We recently found out that one of our closest mentors is leaving to pursue God's will. Our pastor, friend, mentor, leader, and brother in Christ has been with us for 4 years now and we have really come to love him and his sweet family. He counseled us before marriage, and has been there for our family in huge ways. We will forever be grateful to God for letting us borrow him for this long, and pray that He uses Bro. Mark as he moves on to his next mission. We don't know the road ahead for GGBC, but we do know that God knows, and has the next man of God lined up for our church. I pray that we stick together and support each other and continue to pray for our new pastor, as well as our friend who is leaving.
Our latest concern is a house. Obviously Brian needs a job first, so that is our first prayer. However, our trailer is very very old and starting to really go. Every day something else happens. We will definitely look back at our newlywed time and laugh someday, but not today. :) We have been so blessed to have a place to stay with no rent, and are forever thankful to Granny for that. But, we need a new place now. So, we may rent an apartment for about 6 months (once he has a job) so that we can find a house. Or we may try to fix the trailer and tough it out, just depends on which would cost more.
So that's all the catching up I had to do! I think this is my longest post yet, but don't get used to it. :)
For starters, Brian still has not been hired as a teacher. He has had 3 interviews with different schools, and got his first rejection letter yesterday. We haven't heard anything from the other 2 as of yet. I know in my heart that God will provide for us and will never leave or forsake us, because He told us so in His word. But telling my head that is a totally different story. Or maybe it's the other way around. Either way, I am getting very nervous. We kind of thought he would have a job more quickly, so we are definitely trying not to get discouraged. The good news is he found out Tuesday that he got a summer job as a server at the Plantation. This is so awesome and we are thankful for this opportunity He has given Brian.
Another part of our lives has revolved around something that I have wanted so badly since I was old enough to realize the concept; to be a mommy. We have been praying about God's plan for us in this area, and I have a peace that He will bless us in His timing. I have some medical issues that will only get better once we have a child, so that is why we came off of birth control...almost a year ago. That being said, it worries me that somethink more may be wrong. However, I know that God's timing is everything. And being that B doesn't have a steady job, and we don't have a house yet, I know that His timing is not now. Once again, my head knows. But my heart hurts and longs for a sweet baby of our own. I continue to pray daily for God's peace and strength and patience as we wait this out.
We recently found out that one of our closest mentors is leaving to pursue God's will. Our pastor, friend, mentor, leader, and brother in Christ has been with us for 4 years now and we have really come to love him and his sweet family. He counseled us before marriage, and has been there for our family in huge ways. We will forever be grateful to God for letting us borrow him for this long, and pray that He uses Bro. Mark as he moves on to his next mission. We don't know the road ahead for GGBC, but we do know that God knows, and has the next man of God lined up for our church. I pray that we stick together and support each other and continue to pray for our new pastor, as well as our friend who is leaving.
Our latest concern is a house. Obviously Brian needs a job first, so that is our first prayer. However, our trailer is very very old and starting to really go. Every day something else happens. We will definitely look back at our newlywed time and laugh someday, but not today. :) We have been so blessed to have a place to stay with no rent, and are forever thankful to Granny for that. But, we need a new place now. So, we may rent an apartment for about 6 months (once he has a job) so that we can find a house. Or we may try to fix the trailer and tough it out, just depends on which would cost more.
So that's all the catching up I had to do! I think this is my longest post yet, but don't get used to it. :)
Monday, March 8, 2010
Sometimes, a slap in the face feels good...
Yesterday our pastor preached on God's will. He touched on how to actually know you're in His will, and not yours. Ouch. This is a very tough subject for me, because I am human and selfish and want to do things the way I want to do them. Let me also mention that I struggle with patience...
Patient:
Main Entry: 1pa·tient
Pronunciation: \ˈpā-shənt\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English pacient, from Anglo-French, from Latin patient-, patiens, from present participle of pati to suffer; perhaps akin to Greek pēma suffering
1 : bearing pains or trials calmly or without complaint
Calmly and without complaint...In order to be in God's will, patience is a must. So needless to say, I was slapped pretty hard yesterday as I sat and heard God speak through my humble pastor. He also said that in order to determine God's will we must go to our Bibles (we must listen to Him), our knees (we must talk to Him), and our friends/family/pastor/Godly council. It is also very important that we do it in this order. We should never seek Godly council until we have first went to God. Make sense?
Lastly, if after you have done all of these things and still have the desire for your decision, then do it! Psalm 37:4 says, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Not he may, or he probably will... It's a definite! All this time I have struggled with how to know if it's God telling me to, or my own selfish desires wanting to. And it's as simple as reading His word and letting Him speak to you, praying to Him, seeking wise council, and just doing it is His name!
I hope that you are as excited as I am about being in God's will...That was one slap that felt refreshing!
Patient:
Main Entry: 1pa·tient
Pronunciation: \ˈpā-shənt\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English pacient, from Anglo-French, from Latin patient-, patiens, from present participle of pati to suffer; perhaps akin to Greek pēma suffering
1 : bearing pains or trials calmly or without complaint
Calmly and without complaint...In order to be in God's will, patience is a must. So needless to say, I was slapped pretty hard yesterday as I sat and heard God speak through my humble pastor. He also said that in order to determine God's will we must go to our Bibles (we must listen to Him), our knees (we must talk to Him), and our friends/family/pastor/Godly council. It is also very important that we do it in this order. We should never seek Godly council until we have first went to God. Make sense?
Lastly, if after you have done all of these things and still have the desire for your decision, then do it! Psalm 37:4 says, "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Not he may, or he probably will... It's a definite! All this time I have struggled with how to know if it's God telling me to, or my own selfish desires wanting to. And it's as simple as reading His word and letting Him speak to you, praying to Him, seeking wise council, and just doing it is His name!
I hope that you are as excited as I am about being in God's will...That was one slap that felt refreshing!
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