Last night I realized something. Something big. I have to stop trying to run my own life and I have to start giving everything to God. I so often say that it's in His hands, or that He will handle it. Although there is soooo much truth in that, I have to believe it and not just say it. I also have to learn to prioritize. I want so many things at the same time and I just want to go and make them all happen. I have to learn that God's timing is not my own and I need to chill out and let him paint the picture! So on my way to work I heard a song that I love, and it was a great reminder from God that I need to just wait. Wait. Wait. And then wait. He's got this and doesn't need my help.
"I'm waiting. I'm waiting on you, Lord. And I am hopeful. I'm waiting on you, Lord. Though it it painful, but patiently I will wait. I will move ahead bold and confident. Taking every step in obedience. While I'm waiting, I will worship. While I'm waiting, I will not faint. I'll be running the race, even while I wait." -John Waller-
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Here lately...
Yeah, I know...it's been a month since I posted. I am seriously going to start posting weekly...seriously. Anyway, a lot has been going on lately so I will just give you the 411 of our lives right now, short version.
For starters, Brian still has not been hired as a teacher. He has had 3 interviews with different schools, and got his first rejection letter yesterday. We haven't heard anything from the other 2 as of yet. I know in my heart that God will provide for us and will never leave or forsake us, because He told us so in His word. But telling my head that is a totally different story. Or maybe it's the other way around. Either way, I am getting very nervous. We kind of thought he would have a job more quickly, so we are definitely trying not to get discouraged. The good news is he found out Tuesday that he got a summer job as a server at the Plantation. This is so awesome and we are thankful for this opportunity He has given Brian.
Another part of our lives has revolved around something that I have wanted so badly since I was old enough to realize the concept; to be a mommy. We have been praying about God's plan for us in this area, and I have a peace that He will bless us in His timing. I have some medical issues that will only get better once we have a child, so that is why we came off of birth control...almost a year ago. That being said, it worries me that somethink more may be wrong. However, I know that God's timing is everything. And being that B doesn't have a steady job, and we don't have a house yet, I know that His timing is not now. Once again, my head knows. But my heart hurts and longs for a sweet baby of our own. I continue to pray daily for God's peace and strength and patience as we wait this out.
We recently found out that one of our closest mentors is leaving to pursue God's will. Our pastor, friend, mentor, leader, and brother in Christ has been with us for 4 years now and we have really come to love him and his sweet family. He counseled us before marriage, and has been there for our family in huge ways. We will forever be grateful to God for letting us borrow him for this long, and pray that He uses Bro. Mark as he moves on to his next mission. We don't know the road ahead for GGBC, but we do know that God knows, and has the next man of God lined up for our church. I pray that we stick together and support each other and continue to pray for our new pastor, as well as our friend who is leaving.
Our latest concern is a house. Obviously Brian needs a job first, so that is our first prayer. However, our trailer is very very old and starting to really go. Every day something else happens. We will definitely look back at our newlywed time and laugh someday, but not today. :) We have been so blessed to have a place to stay with no rent, and are forever thankful to Granny for that. But, we need a new place now. So, we may rent an apartment for about 6 months (once he has a job) so that we can find a house. Or we may try to fix the trailer and tough it out, just depends on which would cost more.
So that's all the catching up I had to do! I think this is my longest post yet, but don't get used to it. :)
For starters, Brian still has not been hired as a teacher. He has had 3 interviews with different schools, and got his first rejection letter yesterday. We haven't heard anything from the other 2 as of yet. I know in my heart that God will provide for us and will never leave or forsake us, because He told us so in His word. But telling my head that is a totally different story. Or maybe it's the other way around. Either way, I am getting very nervous. We kind of thought he would have a job more quickly, so we are definitely trying not to get discouraged. The good news is he found out Tuesday that he got a summer job as a server at the Plantation. This is so awesome and we are thankful for this opportunity He has given Brian.
Another part of our lives has revolved around something that I have wanted so badly since I was old enough to realize the concept; to be a mommy. We have been praying about God's plan for us in this area, and I have a peace that He will bless us in His timing. I have some medical issues that will only get better once we have a child, so that is why we came off of birth control...almost a year ago. That being said, it worries me that somethink more may be wrong. However, I know that God's timing is everything. And being that B doesn't have a steady job, and we don't have a house yet, I know that His timing is not now. Once again, my head knows. But my heart hurts and longs for a sweet baby of our own. I continue to pray daily for God's peace and strength and patience as we wait this out.
We recently found out that one of our closest mentors is leaving to pursue God's will. Our pastor, friend, mentor, leader, and brother in Christ has been with us for 4 years now and we have really come to love him and his sweet family. He counseled us before marriage, and has been there for our family in huge ways. We will forever be grateful to God for letting us borrow him for this long, and pray that He uses Bro. Mark as he moves on to his next mission. We don't know the road ahead for GGBC, but we do know that God knows, and has the next man of God lined up for our church. I pray that we stick together and support each other and continue to pray for our new pastor, as well as our friend who is leaving.
Our latest concern is a house. Obviously Brian needs a job first, so that is our first prayer. However, our trailer is very very old and starting to really go. Every day something else happens. We will definitely look back at our newlywed time and laugh someday, but not today. :) We have been so blessed to have a place to stay with no rent, and are forever thankful to Granny for that. But, we need a new place now. So, we may rent an apartment for about 6 months (once he has a job) so that we can find a house. Or we may try to fix the trailer and tough it out, just depends on which would cost more.
So that's all the catching up I had to do! I think this is my longest post yet, but don't get used to it. :)
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