Monday, September 27, 2010

Blessed

We officially have godparents for our sweet precious baby!!! Brian and I had never really talked about who we would want to be in charge of raising our kids should something happen to the both of us. The first time we even mentioned it, we both already had a couple in mind. We decided to say it at the same time, to see if we were thinking about the same couple. We indeed were! What a comfort to know we were on the same page in this area without even having to think about it! Adam and Amy Page are such good friends of ours. Brian and Adam have grown up together, being the best of friends. I met Adam and Amy about 4 years ago, when Brian and I started dating. Amy and I had an instant friendship and I treasure her so much. Adam and Amy got married back in July of this year, and Brian and I were both honored to be in the wedding. We could not think of any better couple to be parents and to love our kids and show them Christ’s love.



Last night after church, we decided to ask them about taking this role in our baby’s life, as well as tell them our news and ask them to pray. When we first asked them, we asked that they take some time and pray about it, as it is a huge responsibility. They agreed and said they would talk and pray and let us know. We then told them our news, and we all just cried and prayed together. We made it clear that our tears were not for sadness, and we did not want them to pray for any changes. They agreed and encouraged us so much. By the end of the conversation, Adam looked at Amy and said, “I think I can speak for both of us when I say that there is no talking needed; we would be honored to be a part of this baby’s life.” We looked at Amy for confirmation and she sweetly nodded and then just started crying again. We hugged for several minutes and she told me how she would always love my baby as her own and how she could not wait to hold him/her and she would always be there for the baby.


Wow…are we blessed or what?! I want to cry just writing this. Adam and Amy are such a huge blessing to us and I am so thankful God brought them into our lives, as well as brought them together in marriage. They are doing such big things to glorify God, and I know He has huge plans for them. It’s comforting to know that our baby (and future babies) will be in wonderful hands should something ever happen to Brian and me.

The most amazing pair of pants...

Yep. I bought them yesterday. I decided it was time to look for at least work pants, since the rubber band trick is not comfortable anymore. I didn't feel like going all the way to Target for a Belly Band, so I settled for Ross. The only pair of dress pants I could find in a maternity size small were a pair of brown ones with a stretchy panel. I tried them on and almost melted. They were heavenly! This little panel thing should be manditory in ALL pants! I was so excited because they were a must-have and the price tag said only $7.99!!! It does NOT get better than that. Well, I decided to look for black pants but I figured I would just find a regular juniors pair in a size larger than I normally wear. Bad idea. I usually wear a 5. So I grabbed a 7. Would not even button. I took a deep breath and told myself that a 9 would be perfect. I walked back into the dressing room, excited to see how they looked on me. Well, about the time I pulled them over my hips, I realized that these suckers were not going to button either! Needlesstosay, I gave up and decided that either a belly band or maternity pants were all I will ever try on again until this baby comes out!

I was able to get a few cute tops for work, so I was pretty happy with that. I will go to Target next weekend and see about the ole Band! It should allow me to wear my normal pants for a while, and you just wear the band over it so no one sees your pants are actually unbuttoned. Pretty nifty idea, if ya ask me ;)

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

The call...

Today, I received a phone call from Ms. Gaye at North Florida OB/Gyn. She wanted to let me know that the results were in from our first trimester screening. I had all expectations for her to say that everything looked normal and healthy and she would see us back in October. However, the conversation went slightly different. She was very soft and gentle and chose her words very carefully. She let me know that according to the baby’s measurements and the results of my blood test, the chances of the baby having Down’s syndrome were slightly higher than normal. As soon as she said this, my heart stopped. I was immediately hurting for my sweet baby and was letting my mind wander to think worse things that could be wrong and how my baby would hurt. It is absolutely amazing how protective you can be over someone you have never met, felt, or even seen. Well, I guess we have seen the baby and we have seen it moving around and looking like an actual baby and it just makes everything so much more real when you experience that.


So she went on to explain that the chances were still very low, but higher than normal. In a woman over 35, the chance is 1 in 220. For me, it’s 1 in 120. Still less than a percent and we know God is not a God of statistics. Anyhow, Ms. Gaye went on to tell me the next step in this process, and how we needed to schedule an ultrasound for around 16 weeks. At this point in the pregnancy, they should be able to better determine the possibility of this happening. However, if they still cannot confirm, they then suggest amniocentesis. Not sure how many of you know about this, but it increases your chances of miscarriage. I told her absolutely not. We will love this baby no matter what, and I am not putting my baby’s life at risk just to know whether or not he/she will have this genetic difference.


Since that conversation, we have been in prayer and have asked a few close friends for prayer as well. We don’t want prayer for things to change, but rather for us to keep the joy we have and also for nothing more serious to be wrong. I think I can speak for Brian and me both when I say that if God has chosen to bless us with a child with Down’s, then obviously He entrusts us with a huge responsibility and sees us fit to love and care for this child. That being said, we want to rejoice in this! We have not told our families, as we don’t want them worrying. If we do indeed get confirmation, we will share the news at that time. Until then, we will be in constant prayer for our sweet unborn baby and pray that he/she keeps growing and getting strong! We should find out in early November if it is a he or a she, but I am hoping that they can tell us at the 16 week ultrasound! It is scheduled for October 12th, which is so close!!! :)



I will leave you with a passage that we studied Wednesday night...how appropriate and amazing that God would give us this encouragement on the day we found out this news.

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.”

-James 1:2-4

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Praising the Lord for the 2nd trimester!!!

We had our 2nd ultrasound last week! Everything looked great and our baby showed off for us again. I just love being able to see what's going on inside of me!!! It's definitely reassuring to see our baby and to see it move all around while we watch. Baby was facing my back, so our pic shows the baby face down. However, you can definitely see a head and profile!!! We also got to see the little hands go up to the face again and again. At one point, the baby even stretched out for us! It was amazing :)

As for the screening, we will get results back in about 6 weeks. Dr. Long said everything looked healthy and the heart rate is about 160 bpm. According to the old wivestale, we may have a girl on our hands. But we will know for sure in about 7-8 weeks (if baby cooperates!!!). We have been throwing around several names but haven't made a final decision. A few girl names we like are Maelynn, Mylee, Karlie and Presley. For boys, we like Carson, Conner, Carter, and Marshall. I think once we know what it is we will have an easier time choosing!

Here is a 12 week belly bump pic...baby is growing!!!



Yesterday marked the first day of my 2nd trimester! I am so thankful that we are out of the critical 1st trimester. The chances for miscarriage now go way down, even though it's always a possibility. I should be able to feel the baby move in about 3 weeks, which I have so been looking forward to! I still sometimes find myself in awe that I am pregnant...it's weird when you cannot feel anything inside of you. The sickness did not leave with the first trimester, unfortunately. I am praying that it will fade in the next few days. I had a really bad day yesterday, when I attempted to go to an FSU game with Brian. I made it almost to the end of the 1st quarter then literally almost passed out. :( Today was a little better, but I still got sick twice. I pray that it passes soon so that I can make sure my baby is getting all the good stuff he/she needs.

My next appointment is in 4 weeks, where we will just do a check up and hear the heart beat again (which sounds like a miracle!!!). Until then, I will leave you all with a picture of Baby Stiles :)

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Lately...

It's been 2 weeks since my last post...I have GOT to get better at this! Well, not much has changed with the pregnancy. The nausea is still hanging around, but I have not been actually throwing up as much. Good for the baby, still rough on me. I can deal though. :) I am now 11 weeks, and get to see my baby again on the 16th of this month! That's only one week away!!!

We went to my sister, Mandi's house this past weekend. She gave me all kinds of goodies! We got a glider and matching ottoman, high chair, play mat, and 3 big boxes of maternity clothes. And as if that were not enough, my sister surprised me by giving us a gift card to get our crib and changing table!!!!!!!!!!! I was so relieved, as that was a big purchase that we were going to have to make in a few months. After much hassle with Target and dealing with recalls and sold out items, we finally were able to order the crib today. I cannot wait to get it!!! Brian moved in all the baby stuff to our spare room, which is currently his music room. I think it finally hit him that we are going to have a baby! He had to move a lot of his stuff around and just stood there staring. However, he said our band is about to start forming with it's first member arriving in March ;) He thinks "he" will play the guitar, I say "she" will be a drummer. Haha! Guess we will see who is right in about 9 weeks! It can't come soon enough!

So that's about it right now! My baby bump is starting to bump! I can no longer even think about buttoning most of my work pants, but the rubber band trick is doing it's job for now. ;)